February 19th, 2006
|07:03 pm - fear to falcity.|
see a person can wake up every morning play the same song and put on the clothes he feels comfortable with.
that person can slide the keys off his table and into his palm.
that kid can take his car and drive right off a fucking cliff.
but between how many things has that person done,
laughed at a funny moment
smiled at a cute girl
slight a meaningful cause
but to say an end is the end of all that would be a fact.
there wouldnt be anymore glaring or laughing or smiling
thered be nothing no one to hurt no one to make happy
a feeling can go too far to the point were your lose your mind, where you have no place to go besides down, where to catch yourself and rise to the place you were before you decided to drive to your death, its hard.
so that person can do alot of things between then and now
he can pray his mind starts working. he can pray he decides to put his foot on the break, and he can swear that it will never happen again.
this entry isnt about suicide. its about someone who hasnt been to that point yet, its about someone who wants a rope to be thrown to him, its about having a horse to land on and ride away when he jumps from the balcony.
everyone needs someone to go to after its over. and after youve done the deed its hard for someone to be okay .
Current Mood: discontent
Current Music: fiona apple - paper bag
February 11th, 2006
|08:47 pm - life|
well my life has changed soo much i cant keep up with it i feel like i dont do anything my life is just a big circle.
January 4th, 2006
its all about patterns, theres a MILLION DIFFERENT ONES.
December 5th, 2005
we'll fight a good fight.
you know those wars without ammunition.
the ones where your set up to lose
so shane look at the plans. and see if your commiting suicide or becoming a martyr.
so is it giving up or giving in. because the only person who should know that is yourself. but if you dont no who's supposed to, a god, a friend, someone you love.but this is where it gets tricky. what if you found yourself in that situation. and nothing was there to give you an answer.
so next time you look into a problem dont just read the fucking words. learn what they mean.
November 23rd, 2005
RELIVE REPLAY REJOYCE . WE KILL AT THE HANDS OF OTHERS TO PUT OUR MELTING BRAINS BACK INTO OUR HEADS.
HEY have you ever felt like nothing was fucking real. i can tell you i have no clue what has been going on in my life for the past 6 months. god bless and good luck.
Current Music: murder city devils
July 28th, 2005
shit falls alot faster than you can throw it.
that simple assholes.
Current Music: i dont listen to music.
June 18th, 2005
i raise my glass to symetry,to the second hand and its accuracy to the actual size of everything, the desert is the sand, you cant hold it in your hands, it wont bow to your demands, theres no difference you can make and if it seems like an accident a collage of senselessness, you werent looking hard enough, i wasnt looking hard enough
i want to learn such simple things
but ive just got myself to blame
i leave it up to fate
with those choices i could make
when those choices i could make
one day ill find my own damn words.
Current Music: connor oberst
May 26th, 2005
sometimes you cant feel anyworse or any better.
you can admit admire and accept and things might only get worse
but atleast they can change.
May 23rd, 2005
its so hard to dance when you dont have your dancing shoes
May 17th, 2005
superglue. those damn pieces back in order. we dont want an ugly personality.
Current Music: meatloaf.